new beginnings
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new beginnings Wednesday February 23
it couldn't get any more perfect than that.
last weekend, my thinkpad hard drive crashed. i lost 4 years' worth of college papers, applications, resumes, statements of purpose, funny little pictures, music, and a bunch of other things that i'd rather have.
ibm was nice enough to ship me a new drive for free. i installed linux on it as an experiment; i'm currently deciding whether or not to keep it on there. sure, it's neat, and i'll learn a lot if i keep it on there, but sometimes i just get tired. i get tired of trying to keep up on all the new computer stuff; i'd rather just do what works for me and i know well.
that's the way it gets when you get older, i hear. you just want to do it the way you've always done it.
the reason i make mention of "perfection" above, is that, well, i decided it's time for the posting hiatus to end. i have time again for this website. i have time to document what i'm thinking about, and what i'm seeing. i connected my camera to transfer pictures from my camera to my pc. i finally wanted to show everyone what i've been doing for almost two months.
explorer locked up on me when i tried to copy the files over, so i killed the power on my camera and decided to try again. only, when i turned it on, it reported that the 200-odd pictures on there were, well, missing. apparently windows had corrupted my camera when it tanked.
computers haven't been very friendly to me recently, or at least, they've been okay, but they've been particularly vicious about my data.
it's a great lesson in not holding on to things that you'll never be able to hold on to. memory is pruned over time, and instead we are left with a persona based solely on those experiences, so many of which we will never remember again; eventually only what is "here and now" is what becomes important.
what we have in our heads this day, this week, this month, and even this year; that is what is important and what makes our life "right now". as soon as you wipe the slate clean -- in my case, quite physically with a hard drive crash and a camera blank -- your memories and perceptions of how things used to be just aren't so relevant anymore; you have to proceed into the new era of how things are right now.
