tuesday night coffee
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tuesday night coffee Tuesday May 11
tonight i blew up emotionally at laurel and naomi. there's never a good reason to blow up at anyone, but i don't have much of a temper. in fact, i'm usually cool headed to the extent that people push me about a little -- naomi for sure, this isn't to be doubted -- but also liz from foellinger (who has met me in a different time in my life and interacted with me in a totally different context than naomi) has said that i'm fun to poke fun at because i take it so well.
and i do.
in that sense, blowing up at people is a tool. certainly, emotion is emotion, i don't make a cognitive effort to explode, but when i do, i realize that since i never act that way, i have effectively conveyed that no, i wasn't joking. i was serious. it certainly comes with consequences; i'll go around tomorrow and say all the necessary apologies and so on, and i'll express that i really don't want this event to negatively affect our friendship. but -- the reason this event upset me is precisely that -- two of my close friend
the phone just rang, it was laurel, and everything's fine now. friends are great. we just needed to let off some steam. we all understand each other, and that's what was missing earlier.
