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one of those tests Friday February 28

i think every student needs to have the experience, just once if no more, of walking into class on the day that there's an exam -- but not knowing it until the answer sheets are being passed around.

this is what happened today in linguistics discussion. however, due to the essay nature of the exam, i feel that my bull was sufficient to qualify me as at least a junior-level LAS student -- because that's what college is also about: being able to twist your native language in so many ways to fill a couple of pages without saying more than a couple of sentences. in the end, i wonder if that's what we're being graded on?

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engagement Wednesday February 26

mark: why'd you get engaged?
sarah: why?
mark: yeah
mark: what happened?
sarah: uhhh
sarah: i got engaged because the boyfriend asked me to marry him and got me a ring?
mark: oh
mark: i guess that's how it happens, doesn't it?

sarah met dan on the internet via their mutual friend danielle, who was sarah's friend from high school, and attends duke with dan. dan and sarah fell in love online, and then they went to see one another to see if anything would come of it. this announcement is no surprise to me, as they were practically engaged before.

there's really no story here, and i'm not going to analyze anything about my age, outlook on relationships, or anything like that. i'll just leave it stand at that, and say that somewhere someday, i might end up married. if that were to happen, denis leary would probably be the only thing to get me through it.

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another picture Monday February 24

recently, all i've been posting is pictures...ah, c'est la vie:

shit happens shit happens.
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caption contest Saturday February 22

right... it's a caption contest. please leave your own in the comments, mine is "does that also mean it has to be a 5-mile-per-gallon SUV?".
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what it (should) mean to be american Friday February 21

i went to cara's friend grace's apartment for korean food last night. grace, cara, and i began talking about our views about american politics, which broadened to a general discussion on america.

all of this was sparked by (a) a previous discussion about grace's republican boyfriend, and (b) carol moseley-braun's announcement that she is intending to run for presidency in 2004.

the first comment on the table was a natural one: "man, i'd love to see a black, woman president after two-hundred-plus years of the old guard of white men." this is an ignorant statement; i try to vote on policy, not based on color or sex. strange as it sounds, however, i am more likely to agree with a liberal black woman than an old white man, and i think that's because i am one of those damn bleeding-heart liberal (aka human) bastards.

statisically, this country has been ruled by Old White Man. this isn't surprising, as the first settlers of this nation were obviously white men from europe, and they set up a democracy to rule themselves. from the beginning, america has been a nation that has been supporting white man, and keeping him on top. the native americans. the trail of tears. slavery. japanese internment camps in wwii. unequal rights for african-americans. hundred-plus years without woman's suffrage.

women are equals in our society finally, but they don't have equal opportunity: a woman has every opportunity to educate herself through college independent of sex. a woman can buy a house, car, anything she has money for, she can get insurance, credit, and whatnot. women are equal except for one thing: money. and they lack money because of men. the white man has been doing this same thing for years: finding intricate ways to prevent any other group (even females from the same race) from uprooting them from their stronghold position on the country's highest positions of power. oh yes, we have equal rights among sexes -- but that doesn't mean that men themselves view women equally.

another argument is that positions of power are not positions for compassion; women tend to be more compassionate (except for my ex-girlfriend gina, she was quite utterly cold and ruthless, and i believe she would make an effective politician). this leads to my general conclusion about this post, which may come across as idealistic, but i think that ideal conditions are not impossible, and that skepticism is merely a tool to destroy the progress of change.

america needs to change. the old white guard is over, and it is time for us to embrace that, not cling to the remnants of it. spanish is rapidly becoming a second language, minority groups are growing larger, and essentially, america must redefine what it means to be american. in the immigration rush of the early 1900s, people from all over the world came to the united states -- however, they were poor, powerless, and essentially went right to work for the white man already in power.

today, this is not the case. minority groups, thanks to financial aid, a more liberal and understanding society, and worldwide education, are building strong individuals who are ready to take on leading roles in america. no longer are they doomed to work in factories for a wage: these are black, asian, latino, or whatever people, and they have the same education as i do. therefore, our opportunities should be equal. a black woman with good policies should stand as much of a chance as a white man to be the next president.

the official barriers are no longer in place -- the hardest barriers yet remain: the ones inside the citizens of this nation. whites cannot assume that minorities are a threat to the prosperity of america, and they must realize that embracing all (ala modus vivendi) together is what will make this nation the strongest. we saw this on september 11th.

what makes america great is our freedom to say, go, believe, and be as we please, and if we deny that right to anyone, we are denying what makes this country amazing. in a sentence, i am saying that a racially and culturally diverse population is the key to success -- because if we understand our diversity, it gives us unity as a nation. to me, that's what it means to be american in the next generation.

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wahoooo Wednesday February 19

the new laptop
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recently...

it's been awhile since i've done a picture post.

barista when starbucks can invent a word and have it become mainstream usage, i want to stop drinking coffee. starbucks is always working on some venti image, and their coffee seems to come last -- that is, unless you don't like real coffee, and you're just another fat american getting heavy off of mocha-frappe-crappe-psuedo-but-not-coffee-cino-lattes. you ignorant swine.
fortune todd posted some good fortunes the other day. i don't know if mine holds up to his, but, well, try it: add "in bed".
i voted as seen in the bathroom at papa del's. rawk.


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valentine's day Sunday February 16

cara cooked me a nice dinner of indian-like curry. it just happened to fall on valentine's day. but that's not why she did it -- she was just shoring up debts from our pasta night last week. cara's friend from high school had a get-together, and cara warned me that it would be mostly all japanese people there.

we stayed there for an hour and a half, standing just outside of about eight people strewn on couches and the floor. the host, cara's friend yuka, stood and talked with us.

and everything was in japanese. it was right up my alley, except that the true natural speakers (i.e., from japan, etc.) spoke so fast that i could only catch the topics of conversation; most of the time i missed the details. however, the point of me telling this story is about japanese people, the study of japanese, and where cara and i, individually, fit in to that.

she spent eight years living in tokyo when she was young; her japanese took over her english as a native language. not only until she returned to the states did english kick back in. she is natively fluent in both languages and cultures.

i have studied japanese for the past year and a half, and i have been there twice for a total of about two months. my fluency in both language and culture is mostly learned, it is not inherent from residency, and therefore, i have a different perspective. i'm not saying that she and i disagree, i am merely suggesting that we approach these situations differently.

however, our main goal is the same. we want to reverse expectations and assumptions. japanese people speak to her in english even when their english is sub-par to her japanese. they assume she is a half, the product of some white businessman in tokyo and some japanese woman in the city. and with that assumption, an entire series of other ones follow that i need not detail here. she is interested in upheaving these assumptions; showing people that you cannot always put an individual into a "box", and if you do, you should not be surprised when they don't fit in every dimension.

and as for myself: there are various reasons that a white guy learns japanese, and i think that i deviate from the standards. however, people (americans and japanese) often ask me why i am studying the language. if it's in japanese, i have trouble translating the idea that i solely enjoy personal challenges of will and determination, and if it's in english, people ask me why japanese specifically. it's the language i picked. if i had chosen chinese, korean, or anything with a foreign script (arabic?), i might be just as "into" those things. and i've selected a couple of them to be next, mind you.

again, i don't need to go into the assumptions of the white guy learning japanese, because you probably have your own ideas already. if you don't, just look at the anime & porn crowd. need i say more? anyway. i'm not that, and i think it's important to provide powerful counterexamples to others' expectations.

oh, and it was a good opportunity to listen to japanese interact naturally. if i did it weekly, i'm sure that my listening comprehension would shoot through the roof.

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this is creepy Thursday February 13

creepy tonight i came upstairs after a shower to find cara at my computer. and regan at todd's. creeeeepy.
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to appease nathan

nathan refuses to read my site until i post something reflective. i aim to please, and well, it's important to me that my brother is not boycotting my site. today's topic will, then, pertain directly to nathan (in a way).

i was in the car today with cara, and somehow, we started talking about my ex-girlfriend, heather. i explained to her about how heather and i were more or less doomed from the start, because we went into the relationship knowing it had an expiration date. it was a valid thing to think about, but it essentially stunted any growth that could have taken place; it was a very static relationship.

now, i'm in a relationship, and faced with the possibility of being "doomed" situation like i was last year (read: i will most likely be studying abroad this fall, so once again, the seperation issue arises). however, in this case, i'm not entering the situation with the viewpoint of a guy who's saying, "okay, sweet: you have a guaranteed out in six months, commitment-free."

you say, "bull, mark. a load of bull. since when have you come down from the fear-of-commitment tree?"

i think the difference now is, i'm just choosing to ignore the future. i'm living in this moment, because this is the one that matters right now. we'll worry about tomorrow, well, yeah. at first, i thought this "think about the future" approach was more intelligent, and it may be, but not when the future is spelling out "we-will-not-be-together-in-six-months."

so we have two possible options: (a) thinking about the future, and (b) making sacrifices. i was not equipped to do (b) last year, and since it put me in a little bit of a bind, i elected to turn off (a) in order to not think about (b).

contrast this with nathan's scenario. he's applying to law school in boston, conveniently located, well, in the same city that ashley wants to go to graduate school in. true, the law school in boston has the particular program he's looking for, and apparently, it's a good program, but we can't deny the fact that his search for law schools is being amazingly limited by his better (looking) half. clearly, he is looking at the future, and he's also willing to make potential sacrifices for the sake of his relationship.

i was definitely not at point to be making sacrifices a year ago, and i can't honestly answer whether or not i am willing to today. but i can say that i'm not going to worry about it today, because it's not the issue du jour.

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bicycles Tuesday February 11

i picked up my bicycle from durst today, i had my entire rear assembly and wheel replaced. originally, i spent $55 on my bike, then another $35 for a wheel, plus the $115 i spent today. this means that i've put $205 into a bike that's rusting in places. don't get me wrong, the vital parts are working well -- it's just that for $100 more, i could have a brand-new nice bike. but that's the way things go.

and then the guy tried to sell me a helmet.

my first thought is: i don't want to look like that lame guy who was in my physics class who was always biking around with his helmet on.

my second thought is: i've been biking for 15 years successfully, and i haven't needed a helmet. i've gotten scrapes and bruises, but whatever. i've been fine.

these two thoughts have been enough to keep me helmetless in the recent years, and today, after hearing the salesman's pitch, i elected that looking cool is not a priority over my head's potential safety, and it is by luck that i have been all right. however, sans-helmet there is always an increased risk.

and the first two people i told laughed, and reacted in a manner that suggested they were thinking of my first thought. and i don't care. i like my head, and it's stupid of me to have gone this long without a helmet; todd would never think about riding his motorcycle without one (unless, uh, it's on a girl on the back)...and you ask why bike helmets are necessary...i ride up to 25 mph, on the street, with cars, etc. i think i owe it to myself.

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fine, i'll come clean Monday February 10

so i said in my "neglectful" post that i've been busy at the planet. that's totally true, but there's been something else occupying my time recently, and it's stupid of me not to mention here. you see, this is supposed to be a record of my daily life, and it's quite obvious i've been doing a poor job of doing that; this is most likely that i've been lured in by the opposite sex.

cara and i make your inappropriate remarks below, i know you will

today i decided that i did not want to neglect already hatachi any more than i already have. this website is very important to me, both as a means of journaling and as a means of presenting my viewpoints and the things i see with my lens to the public. it is necessary for me to mention my relationship (and i use this term vaguely, attach whatever label makes you happy) with cara in order to continue to be honest with my readers.

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the mobile revolution Saturday February 8

i don't have a huge need for a laptop right now. however, a financial opportunity allowing me to purchase one arose, and i would be a fool not to seize the opportunity and do so.

specifically, i ordered this ibm thinkpad. please leave your feedback in the comments.

the question is: how is this going to help me be a more productive student? clearly, there are many times when i wished to access my home computer from wherever i happen to be and was unable; often enough i leave my home computer turned on with VNC running such that i can remote-access my machine. but does this justify spending almost $2,000? given that i need this laptop for sure when i go to japan, if nothing else, i have a $400/month computing expense while there. hrmm. that sounds like a student expense. i wonder if scholarships can pay for that?

can't you just smell the capitalism?

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sigh Friday February 7

yesterday was a good day, but it had its ups-and-downs. annoying pet peeves:

  • opening a piece of junk mail just to verify it was indeed junk mail. getting a paper cut on the envelope flap.
  • going to a chinese buffet where some jerk ahead of you has picked out all the meat out of the beef and brocolli. mind you, i like brocolli, but i like beef & brocolli much better.
  • bickham and then there was this guy.
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neglectful Tuesday February 4

so i've been very neglectful to the readers of this website. i haven't posted frequently, and all of the posts have been of little value. let's rectify that.

i've been swallowed up by wpgu-fm recently. i know, i know -- this is the same place of employment that canned me about a year ago -- but it has recently become fun again. most of the work has been engineering-related, as the illini media company board just approved a package for us to upgrade to a scott systems automation package. essentially, since i'm assuming no one knows what that's about, it's a system where everything is digital and touch screen, and we don't have to fuss with CDs anymore.

sweet. the reason that this is cool, however, is that the station needs a lot of work done before it's ready to make this change, and much of this requires me to build things. i like new construction, i don't feel like i'm just fixing something that i fixed a month ago that someone broke again.

moreover, the photo album script i use right here on this website was ported over break to the planet server, and it's now running there. i'm happy, proud, and looking forward to all the valuable feedback the planet staff members who use it can give me.

all of this work has another function, too. i need cash, because if i am to study abroad next fall as i am planning, i'm going to spend a pretty penny on all the details: i know this from first-hand experience. next major purchases include a laptop, a bicycle (in japan), summer tuition, and some plane tickets.

i'm thinking about an ibm thinkpad, what are your recommendations? jon recommended the t-series, but i think that might be a little out of the budget. any other models worth suggesting? i know nathan and esther have the hps...

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